Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Out of Control

Hi folks! Hope you are having a great Wednesday! It's my day off from work and my day to run errands such as grocery shopping! Well, here is another poem  called "Out of Control" that I wrote on July 9th 2016.  It's another poem written from the place of just going thru the motions and not feeling any passion or fire!  I hope you enjoy it!


Out of Control
by: Jerry Seaman Jr.
(c)2016

I'm out of control
And don't know why
All I know to do is
Cry and cry and cry

But when I try
Only dust comes out of 
Each and every eye
Oh, how I long for the day
I can say to this world 
"Good-bye"

I'm out of control
And cannot see
What is clearly
In front of me

Is what I'm going thru
Just a phase?

How I long for 
Beautiful and passionate days

I'm out of control
And don't know why
Is what I'm not feeling 
Simply a lie?

Do I actually possess passion
But just cannot feel?
Is this just a test of faith
To prove that my faith is 
Golden and real?

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Soulless

Hello! Happy Tuesday! I know it has been a LONG time since I have posted here! July 2016 has been a fruitful month for poetry so I wanted to share one of them I have written.

It's entitled "Soulless" and was written on 07/07 and 07/08/16. It is one of my darker poems. I think we all go thru times where we feel like we just "go thru the motions".  This is written from that perspective and is dedicated to all of you who are going thru a desert experience.

Soulless
by: Jerry Seaman Jr.
(c)2016

I feel soulless
Just like Sam
All of the show
But none of the glam

I'm going thru the motions
Without any fire
I'm just like a pig
Covered in the muck and mire

Is there a solution
To the fix I'm in?
I know I am saved
From my each and every sin

I just need to feel the passion
I just need to feel the fire
I need the wind of the Spirit
To fuel my holy desire

Friday, September 25, 2015

Mine

It took me 3 days to write this poem: Feb 4, 8 and 16 of 2011.

It was inspired by the fact that I am always too hard on myself  when I make mistakes and at times questioned my stand with God when I would mess up.  Even though spiritually I know that once I am saved I am always saved...sometimes Satan would creep in with his doubts.

God gave me this poem to encourage me (and others) that no matter how many mistakes we make and how much we mess up, once we have accepted the free gift that Jesus brings, we can NEVER LOSE that salvation!!!

Enjoy the poem and I hope it blesses you!

As always,

Jerry
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Mine
by: Jerry S.
(c)2011 


Hello Mr. Insecurity
Always worrying about your stand with me
Forgetting that I have set you free
When will you finally see?

That you are Mine
Your heart is in the palm of My hand
Don’t you know?
In the center of My will
You will always stand

You are Mine
And always will be
Look at Me
Do you really think that I would ever let you go
Or throw you away?
In your heart,
I will always stay

I know you’ve made mistakes
And how you have fallen flat on your face
But don’t you know that when you fall
You fall into the arms of grace

You are mine
For I have set you free
Because of Jesus,
You will spent eternity with Me

So don’t you worry
And don’t you cry
For when the rapture occurs
To Me, you will fly

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

End of the World

Hi everyone!

Sorry that it has been almost 2 months since I last posted! I will try to start posting more often! Anyway, how is everyone doing?  I pray that God is blessing each and everyone of you abundantly in every way!

The main reason I haven't been posting is that I have been investing my time as a minister for Internet Christian Church on Facebook. It has been such a rewarding time! However, as of this weekend, we have decided to part ways. I was kicked off the church because of a poorly worded post I put on Facebook (where I had posted my video about salvation) about them not thinking my video about salvation was professional enough.

This really saddened me at first. I felt like the leader of the church didn't give me a chance to defend myself and make things right before just kicking me out of the church.  Now, I am not saddened. I am actually okay with it now and am excited to see what will happen in the future.

Out of this experience, God blessed me with a poem I wrote. It's called "End of the World". I wrote it on 09/07/15 on Labor Day. I pray that it is a blessing to each and every one of you!

End Of The World
by Jerry S. 
(c) 2015

It's not the end of the world
That it happened this way
It's not the end of the world
For you today

It's not the end of the world
For I have plans for you
It's not the end of the world
So continue living for and worshiping Me
As you always do

I know it's painful to be
Cut off at the knees
But don't you worry
With you, I am still pleased

I will give you my comfort
I will give you my peace
So don't ever let your passion and joy
Never ever cease

It's not the end of the world
For you today
It's not the end of the world
I still have more things for you to say

So go ahead and start your own church
And reap a bountiful harvest for Me
Shine My bright light
For all the world to see

I will reward you
With a beautiful crown
So start looking up
Instead of being so down

One day when I call your name
You will fly up to me
And on that day
Earthly sorrows and disappointments
Will no longer be

Sunday, July 12, 2015

False Prophet: Joel Osteen

Good morning! Hope everyone is having a GREAT Monday so far!

Welcome to the 1st issue of my new False Prophet/False Religion series!  The reason I am doing this series is to educate you and all the readers out there on the many false religions and false prophets that are out there so you don't get deceived by any one of them! Some false religions are easy to identify like Buddhism, Islam, Jehovah's Witness, Scientology, etc...But some may not be so easy to spot! For example, as a born-again Christian, I often find that there are a lot of Christian pastors/teachers out there on Christian tv like TBN, etc...For me, it would be easy to assume that every pastor that  is out there, especially on tv, are true Christians and that everything that they are teaching is correct!

But not so much! There are a number of pastors/teachers out there that claim to be "Christian" but are not! The Bible teaches that we are to test every teacher's teaching by the Bible and that we can know each person by their fruit!

There is one Christian pastor that is very popular out in the world. His name is Joel Osteen!  If you watch him on tv, he seems nice. He dresses nice and talks nice. He has a nice church with a huge congregation! He must be the real deal, right?!

Wrong!  The reason he is so popular is that he isn't preaching the truth...the truth of the gospel! Let's look deeper at what makes Joel Osteen a false prophet!

First, Joel Osteen preaches the "prosperity gospel".  Joel Osteen teaches that God wants you to have your "best life now" and that God wants you to be successful in all areas of your life.  However, that is not what the Bible teaches. The Bible does say that God will provide for all our needs. But it doesn't say we will ever get everything we want. Plus if you look at how the disciples lived, they were not rich by any means!  Also Jesus--Himself--wasn't born in a rich palace but was born in a lowly humble stable.  In the gospels, you don't see Jesus making lots of money nor living in mansions.  Jesus even mentioned that He had "no place to lay His head" (Matthew 8:20).  Also, if as Christians, we are suppose to be successful in all areas of our lives, then none of us would be persecuted nor would have to die for our faith.  The world would applaud us and even love us if that were the case.  However, in the Middle East, you see all types of Christians being persecuted and slaughtered for their faith!  Also, many Christians, live in poor conditions.  IN addition, 11 of the 12 disciples were martyred for their faith. And the one that wasn't martyred---John--- was exiled to an island because he preached the gospel.  Also, Paul--one of the most famous preachers in the Christian faith who wrote most of the New Testament--often talked about having to face all types of persecutions and dangers when he would go on his missionary trips.  It doesn't sound like they had their "best life now", did it?  The Bible doesn't teach us to have our best life now! It teaches to put our eyes on Heaven and to build treasure in Heaven where "moth nor rust cannot destroy and where thieves cannot break in nor steal" (Matthew 6:20).

Second, Joel Osteen doesn't take a stand on the gospel and on how one can get saved. On a Larry King interview, he will not say who will go to Heaven and who will go to Hell. Larry King asks Joel Osteen: "what if you are a Jew or a Muslim and don't accept Christ at all?". Pastor Joel basically goes on to say that he isn't comfortable in saying who is going to Heaven or not.  The proper answer would be: only those who accepted Christ as Savior will go to Heaven. But Pastor Joel Osteen will not take a stand! Not at all! Watch his interview at:


In closing, Pastor Joel Osteen is a false teacher that only teaches the prosperity gospel (that God wants you to be financially successful) and won't take a stand for Jesus or the gospel! Avoid him at all costs!!!!


Thursday, June 25, 2015

Dead Like Me

Hey everyone!  I know it's been a while since I have shared a poem! Finally, God has laid it on my heart to share another one of my poems!

The poem I am sharing is called "Dead Like Me".  I wrote this poem on 02/24/2010.  This poem was and is inspired by the TV show of the same name that originally aired on Showtime and came out on dvd later.

I can't believe it has been 5 years since I have written the poem! Looking back I can say: haven't we all felt like this before?  Haven't we all felt "dead" about something?  Even as a believer-in-Christ for 28 years, there have been times where I may have felt "dead" about something. Moving to a new state and even still feeling like I don't how to relate to other people here!  Even though it has gotten better! The key thing is to allow our faith to rule our feelings instead of the other way around! And also not to take ourselves too seriously!

Well here it is! Enjoy the poem!  Be blessed!

Jerry
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Dead Like Me

by: Jerry S.
(c)2010-2012

I walk around this town
With an endless frown
Wondering why this had to happen to me
It’s so unfair life had to end this way
It feels like I’m bound in chains
Oh how I long to be free

I hang with a group of people
Who I don’t even know
But this is the way it has to be
I feel so empty inside
That I want to cry
Has anyone ever felt dead like me?

I took a walk in town today
And saw a couple sitting at a picnic table completely in love
I wished that it could happen to me
Tears filled my eyes when I realized
That for me it could never be
Oh, is there anyone who is dead like me?

I’m so lonely that I want to die
But the thing is:
I’m already dead inside
I could really use some help
I would ask if not for my pride

I wrestle with what is
And what isn’t meant to be
I wonder if there is hope for
Someone who’s dead like me?

Thursday, June 11, 2015

28 Years...How Can This Be?! Part 2

Other Things of Note...

From the time I was born (1977) til I was 8 years old, I had seizures.  I had a grand mal seizure at 7 and at 8 that almost killed me!  But God spared my life!  When I was 13 years old at July 1990, the doctor took me off of my medication!  I have been off my medication for 25 years and seizure-free for 30 years! Praise Jesus!  I am so thankful to God for Him healing me!

I was picked on and bullied quite a bit during my school years!  OF course, some years were better than others. However, I was still picked on! I can tell ya that Jesus gave me so much strength (even though I didn't fully realize it at the time) to endure and ignore the bullying! I was determined not to get suspended nor a detention nor retract while I was school! When I graduated high school on May 1996, when I walked across the stage to accept my Advanced Diploma, I felt such a sense of accomplishment!!!! I graduated high school without having a single detention, retract or suspension on my record! Praise Jesus!  Having Jesus in my life (and in your life) was and is absolutely essential to surviving bullying!

Meeting my wife was another monumental event!  In 2001, I was into penpalling (writing snail mail letters to people).  I was writing more than 60 people each month.  A penpal of mine sent my address (on a friendship book) to Becky Hoglin.  I received my first letter from her in January 2002.  We hit it off right away!  Things progressed quickly!   We started calling each other on March 2002. Became a couple in April 2002.  I flew up to meet her in July 2002.  In September 2002, I moved up to where she lived and have been living here ever since.  Amazing how God works!  I could not have orchestrated this by myself even if I tried!  We got married Oct. 2004 and have 3 sons now.

In December 2002, I was diagnosed with testicular cancer.  From January 2003 to March 2003, I went through 3 cycles of chemotherapy! Physically this was one of the hardest times in my life!  During chemo I suffered from some nasty side effects. I did lose my hair. But instead of nausea, I had chronic hiccups from the 2nd or 3rd day of intense chemo to up to 1 week after the chemo was done. Not fun! Chronic hiccups does the same thing as nausea does!  I also when I was at home I had trouble sleeping!  One time I had severe pain when swallowing food or fluids. I had to take meds to deaden my trachea.  I had so much support from Jesus and Becky and her family up here! Becky came to visit me everyday during my intense chemo!  my family in Alabama would call me as well. I had so many people praying for me! Even a chaplin from the hospital visited me one day in the hospital and just sat and listened to my story! How encouraging!  God used that to give me some comfort and relief.  It was important that someone would listen to me telling my story! Anyway, in April 2003,  I went into remission! And am still healthy today!

One year later, in April 2004, I went into a deep depression.  Have you heard the phrase "when it rains, it pours"?  It's true! I started feeling depressed. Two weekends later at work, I started having anxiety attacks.  During this time, i just had moved into an apartment. How hard spiritually and mentally this was on me! I was also having attacks on my mind as well. So 3 different mental things happening!  During this time, I went to the doctor to get medication to be treated. The first medication didn't work to relieve my depression.  It was at this time when I had my lowest moment where I laid face down on the floor in my apartment and cried out to God to end my life! I was in so much mental pain that I just wanted it to end!  After a number of minutes of me griping and crying, God in His gentle way told me "Get up and do something!".  So I got up and decided to walk the mall and began to feel a little better.  Also, God didn't leave me alone to deal with this by myself!  I had the support of my then girlfriend (now wife) and their family.  I also went to a Christian therapist once who led me into the presence of Jesus which totally transformed my life!  Also God sent a friend from Christianpenpals.com named Jason who lived in South Carolina. He would call me atleast once a week to see how I was doing!    I also had some sessions with my then pastor.  All these things that God sent for my assistance really did help! One  thing that God sent to help me was proper medication! My doctor finally found me a medication that helped with my anxiety attacks, depression and the attacks on my mind. I remember the same day I took the medication, I finally got peace of mind! No more bad thoughts. No more attacks of the mind. I began feeling better! I don't know what I would have done without any of these things!!  I can tell you for sure that if I wasn't saved and didn't have faith in Christ I would have committed suicide during this time! Jesus literally saved my life!  Jesus brought me thorugh! Thank you Jesus for bringing me through! Thank you Becky (my sweet wife and then girlfriend) for all your love and support! Thank you Becky's family for your help and assistance! Thank you Pastor David, Jason and my Christian therapist for your support as well!

Some great things happened after this time!  October 8, 2004, I got married to my best friend love of my life Becky! So thankful for Becky's love! What a beautiful ceremony!!!! My Mother made it to my ceremony!  I am so thankful for  my wife! How much I love her! She is my best friend and love of my life! She is an excellent and beautiful wife and mother to our kids! She works hard everyday! I simply could not make it without her!

5 months after the marriage,  Becky became pregnant! Which I considered a miracle! After I had chemo in 2003, I figured I would never have children! But God worked an unexpected miracle! He is really good at these things!  Our first son--Shiloh--was born Dec 9, 2005!  What an emotional time for me! How much love I felt for Shiloh (and still do!).  Since then God blessed me with two more sons!  Jonah was born May 22, 2008.  Micah was born June 27, 2013.  I am so thankful for my children! God uses them to challenge me to be a Christ-like father! God uses them to reveal my weakness and what I need to work on!  God uses them to make my life an adventure!

Jesus has been such a faithful provider through the years! There were a couple times where I was in severe pain with a tooth during a time I didn't have dental insurance! Jesus provided me a way a couple of times to go to a dentist for free so it could be taken care of!

Looking back at how far God has brought me just blows me away!  In 2001, if you had told me tat God would move me to Minnesota to marry a wife and start a family, I would have laughed at your face!  So thankful to Jesus at how He has blessed me!  How humbling! I am so unworthy of the blessings He has given me! Thank you Jesus for blessing me so!